Notes from the Underground 5.3.11

Notes from the Underground is a unique short novel by Feodor Dostoevsky as it is regarded to be the world's first existentialist work.

 

Notes from the Underground - This is Dostoyevsky's first book, published in 1864. This revolutionary novel is confessions of a tormented soul that decides to go underground and away from society.

 

Notes from the Underground - I am an unattractive man. I believe my liver is diseased. However, I know nothing at all about my disease, and do not know for certain what ails me. I don't consult a doctor for it, and never have, though I have a respect for medicine and doctors. Besides, I am extremely superstitious, sufficiently so to respect medicine, anyway (I am well educated enough not to be superstitious, but I am superstitious). No, I refuse to consult a doctor from spite. That you probably will not understand. Well, I understand it, though. Of course, I can't explain who it is precisely that I am mortifying in this case by my spite: I am perfectly well aware that I cannot "pay out" the doctors by not consulting them; I know better than anyone that by all this I am only injuring myself and no one else. But still, if I don't consult a doctor it is from spite. My liver is bad, well let it get worse!